The idea of Normal

Truthfully, whenever I thought about a baby, I just thought… Stress, no spontaneous travel, no Saturday morning sleep and geez, killer of fabulous abs. lol I mean honestly, I was sure they were “precious” but let’s be real, they were just going to screw up the awesomeness you had going on. Don’t judge me!

From my Positive pregnancy test, I had 2 weeks on cloud nine. “Omg, I’m pregnant. Like for real! Wow, I don’t even feel different, I’m so going to work out the whole time and just have fun with it.”…. Then reality set in and all hell broke loose. I got so sick and was unable to do anything. I was throwing up 10-15 times a day, so much so that my eyes were blood shot red. Hubby jokingly called me the terminator at some point… *Side eye* I was SO PISSED! But can’t even front it was kind of funny and dead on. He was such a trooper though, taking care of me was NOT easy and not judging me for how I looked, God bless him! Cause Lord knows I would have left the me I kept seeing in the mirror in that time. LOL

My first doctor’s appointment came a few weeks later-Week 8. We got in, and the Doc was like “Whoa! we need to get those eyes taken care of. Take this for nausea and this for acid. Then use this eye drop and that eye drop”. Still looking and feeling a hot mess, I dragged myself to the examination table for my first ultrasound and the first piece of overwhelming joy materialized.

As I watched the screen, I saw this little bean shaped thing and the lady goes “That’s your baby”. With biggest smile on my face I said “So that’s the tiny thing causing me all of this”… we all laughed. The pain, struggle and discomfort felt so irrelevant and oh so worth it.

I got on the medication and the sickness became a little more manageable, but every day from then was so amazing. By the next ultrasound- Week 12, I knew my little pumpkin had grown and would now have the shape of a baby, so I was super excited to see it. Instead I look over to the screen and not only am I seeing an actual baby, but he/she is moving their hands and feet all over the place. My heart literally left my body. “Holy sh#$%! Babe do you see that! That is a real person!!!” I was so excited and life meant so much more. My soul was smiling; you couldn’t tell me anything in the world was more special than this.

So yes, this baby, will change our idea of normal… but the truth is, whenever I thought about a baby in the past, the one piece of the puzzle that I underestimated was the amount of joy, happiness and fulfillment it would bring. God is truly amazing. What are your thoughts on babies?? What has your pregnancy experience been??  Would love to hear about it!

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